Hematoma

So the good news is that Nathan does not have a skull fracture but he does have a hematoma across the front of his head which is causing his head to look even more dysmorphic than usual.  It is pushing his eyes down so that they are half closed.  I feel bad that I panicked when I saw him this morning because it scared him so much.  Then while at the emergency room at CHOP, he began throwing up.  He is still throwing up off and on but the doctors assured Mark that this is not related to the hematoma but because he has a stomach bug.  We are not sending him to school tomorrow and most likely not on Tuesday either.  I would feel better keeping him out all week but we are going to see how he is feeling.

Libby is jealous and resentful that he gets to stay home tomorrow let alone all week.  It is wonderful having my mom here for many reasons but one of them is that she can spend some time with Libby when I am emotionally drained.  She took Libby to the Dollar Tree for some craft supplies and they went for a walk to the park in the afternoon. 

Nathan would prefer to go to school although he does not want to go looking like he is looking.  He looks awful.  It could take weeks for it to go down and there is nothing we can do to speed up the process.  It stinks that he is going to miss school because we don't want him to be out of the loop.  It stinks that he is sick and not feeling well.  He will have to miss school in June to go to Boston so I don't want him to miss too much now. 

I am frustrated.  I just don't feel right when any of my kids are sick let alone sick plus a hematoma on his head.  I'm completely unsettled and feel like I'm about to jump out of my skin.  I don't know how else to describe the feeling.  It is an awful sinking feeling and yet I am grateful that he does not have a skull fracture.  I just want him to feel better soon and be his happy self.  It is weird not having him running around here.